1.1.11

It's a new year.

So the world is open to resolutions, self-promises, and hope for a better year this one...

It is also an important reminder of last year. The hope of what could be, the gradual loss of enthusiasm, excuses, and then reasons why it hasn't worked out.

I think the biggest excuse is that life gets in the way - and yes it can - but what are we going to do about it this year.

I must remind myself each day that lofty goals will only remain seemingly unachievable and/or distant if we allow them to stay as a big lofty goal. Any big dream, big goal, total change of life will begin with just one tiny little step in the right direction.

One tiny step... just 5 minutes of your time today... and another 5 minutes tomorrow, and another 5 minutes every day after that.

You can't seriously tell yourself that you don't even have 5 minutes every day to take one tiny step in the right direction - 5 minutes of less advertisements on television will not kill you - but continuing to watch them, and do nothing about that internal desire to change your life, will.

And I don't want to hear that you haven't made up your mind yet what it is that you want to do. That is just procrastination. Spend your 5 minutes feeling the burning desire for more, and let it take shape. Turn it into what feelings you want to have in your life, and pursue bringing those feelings more and more into your daily life. Explore. The excitement of simply trying new things will develop a need to feel life.

I heard spoken last night, that 'I'd rather be dead than bored'. A wake-up call.

The boredom I face daily, the torture of feeling that you're stuck in an unchangeable situation - just a mental block, never a physical one.

this is the year that all this changed.

a one-way ticket...

this is my life exploration

there has been so much that has lead me to question what life is, and although previously a 'self-help' junky, I have hit a point in my life where I think perhaps the traditional 'self-help' industry is somewhat questionable.

if it is SELF-HELP then what are we reading it for? the premise for this industry name doesn't make sense to me, as we are just reading someone else's idea of what to do - 'if it's worked for them, it will work for me' doesn't ring true.

I personally have nothing against the industry, but I think books like this shouldn't be viewed as an answer to the questions we are all thinking

so really I want to cut through the noise of self-help in my life - and make it so much simpler - to just follow my own voice, and not the 1000's of voices that are telling me how to do better, be better, get better, expect better.

you might say that in this way by writing about it, i am in fact writing my own 'self-help' blog for others - but that is not my intention. I just want to write about my life. maybe someone will find it interesting. maybe it will force me to make my life interesting

I have hit mid-thirties, and now begun to take a closer look at my life, and all the things I wanted to do when I was a child, and how this can somedays seem like a distant pipe dream...

I am by no means old, but the clock is ticking in many areas of my life, but still I don't want to grow up and get a real job. Maybe this is why the latest trend in self help books have appealed to me - the 4hour work week, and Art of NonConformity genre, that seems to offer a freedom from the traditional life.

this has seriously lead me to question my assumptions about life, on an additional level to what I had already questioned it having read Buddhism, and Stoic books, & explored the theories of quantum physics. but yet I still don't think their 'methods' offer any solution to my 'madness'

all of life is 'open to interpretation' this is simply my interpretation, read it, or not - it is always your choice. but I do this in love and respect for all human creatures, as life is a journey, and this is my travel diary.