re-think the goal

I've been challenged, and have discovered I am focusing on the wrong thing in my quest for career fulfillment.

My drive has been all about money -and the need to earn more, so that we can have the freedom we want. So in every search, the focus hasn't been on 'what', but on 'how much'.... no wonder, I've had no success in getting anywhere.

So, what do I really want in my new job, so that I feel I am contributing to society, having an impact on individuals, and improving the business I work for?
*I want to help people realise and live their dreams.
*I want to create beautiful things, that inspire others to be creative.
*I want to challenge social norms, hierarchies, and fears.
*I want to show the people I love, that it is possible to live the life that you want, by doing it myself.
*I want to meet interesting people all over the world, and learn their languages, discover their cultures, and explore their countries - so as to develop a knowledge and understanding of who they are that bridges the gap between societies, and cultures, eliminating prejudices, and persecution.

Quite the big dream... 

Day 3: decision time

I want to be an author.

I also want to be an actor, and a world traveller.... But right now I feel my energy being pulled toward writing.

This is quite exciting for me because for so long I've just felt lost, but I feel a clear direction now.

I have a wonderful opportunity to have the life that I want - which is to be able to nurture all my passions at the same time, working on different things everyday, and feeling excited and interested in everything that I'm doing.

When I now stop and think, 'i just need the money to do it', I feel the little voice inside me say 'it's for those people who are brave enough to give up everything to pursue their dreams, that the universe puts in place all that they need so they cannot fail'...

Day 2: Escape Plan

today I choose freedom. I'm not going to stay within the boundaries of my usual self, i'm breaking 'the rules' and taking bolder steps to set myself up for where i am going, not where I've been

have re-focused my energy from what I want to escape 'from', to what I want to escape 'to'...

as i update, my never updated profile on LinkedIn, I question - what do I put in the heading description for myself?? I immediately type in 'retail professional' but realise that is bloody crazy - it's absolutely not my future...

'entreprenuer' has become a little trite in my world - want to go something larger like 'change agent' but don't like the ego behind it. 

Perhaps something more honest like 'escape artist' is necessary at this point, but I want to help encourage others on the path that i'm on.

'freedom seeker' too political...

'adventurer' is closer to my heart - as i feel right now i seek to absorb myself in the adventure of freedom.  an adventurer faces fear to chase their dream, and that is what i'm doing now.

Day 1: Get me outa here

Okay, so I know that focusing on how much you 'hate' something is not the way to find a way out - but I do feel a certain sense of urgency to leave my current toxic work situation. ASAP...

So what have I done today to do just that, well, I've emailed a friend to ask about temp jobs, and I received a delivery of books I ordered from the 'largest river in the world', and have been distracted by my desire to sink my teeth into them since.

I will not go to bed tonight until i have done something more forceful to move me to freedom.